Ickiness

I just need to keep telling myself that Spring will be here soon...
I'm so tired of the cold, the gray, the wind, the chills, the darkness. It's not that I haven't had some good times this winter, I am just not suited for this weather.
It doesn't help that my mother, my father, my sister, my grandmother, my grandfather and I have our birthdays in January, February and March either - not with everything going on already. More family drama.
I'm tired of the guilt trips. My mom doesn't even try to see things from my side. It sucks. She even thinks this winter depression I go through every year is a show. Sure Mom. This is how I like to spend my hard-earned money - anti-depressants.
The vote of confidence from my mom and my dad is just terrible... How the hell did it get like this? I feel like I've done pretty well - especially for someone who hasn't finished college. I pay bills on time and still have money leftover to play around with or save. I'm able to pay off a new car and I have a job where I can express my creativity daily. I like to read and learn new things everyday - I'm not an idiot by any means and I behave myself (for the most part). I have NEVER borrowed money from them and the only time I asked them to co-sign for a used car years ago, they declined.
It's just a mess.
I do know that whatever is going on, it's not my fault. Whatever happened years ago had nothing to do with me. It's not going to shred my confidence anymore...
The past was shaped by guilt...
That IS NOT how I choose to live my life.